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May 2006
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Dear Mother
So Kiden believes I need to vent my feelings in a more healthy manner. I'm gonna try.......
Wait did I tell you about Kiden? She's a mutant, and my friend. She's strong. She cares. And she thinks I should try writing to you instead of cutting. She also suggested that I try helping people. Pay back society for my crimes.
So I'm trying.
Today I save a boy from being knocked over. Although he screamed when he saw what the car did to me instead of him.
I got a cat out of the tree for an elderly women.
I carried an old mans shopping home for him.
And I gave some money to charity.
But I don't feel like I helped.
I feel.... the same.
X23, Laura.

Current Location: New York City
Current Mood: creativecreative
Current Music: Four Star Mary - Liar

I failed another person, I just..... stood and watched as a small child, a little girl walked into the road and was knocked over. Why didn't I help? Why didn't I save her? It would have been so easy, so simple...... but I didn't. Maybe I truely am evil......


The blood looks warm, real dripping down my arm.. the little bloody crosses a remind of my failure. Maybe I should see someone about it......

Laura ran her hands down her legs, smoothing out the wrinkles in the stockings. Her fingers touching briefly the thick red, almost black liquid on her ankle. She sighed weakly and glanced to the body, she didn't understand why someone would do that, why any man would. Her claws slipped out of her hands with a Skint and she cut two long lines on her forearms. Before silently walking out of the hotel room.
Laura walked in silence down the street, every so often her eyes drifting closed to hear the steady sound of heart beat. The steady sound of the man following her......
the fight was coming, just who she was fighting........ she didn't know. Yet.

Current Location: outside NY
Current Mood: pissed offpissed off
Current Music: Shayne Ward - I cry

My arm is healed......... my healing surpasses *his*. Do I surpass him? I don't know.......
I only cut myself 8 times today mother........ are you proud? Do you look at me wherever you are now your body is dust and think 'well done'.
8 cuts, and I only spoke 3 words.
Are you Proud?
A killing machine that hasn't killed.
A genius who speaks no words?
I've been moving through these people, but I leave no foot prints, Am I Ghost?
I'm so confused mother....
I met a man today..... He said to call him... 'Daddy'. I don't understand, why call him Daddy if he wishes to use me. Touch me?
I miss you mother.
I wish I could be what you want.
A legacy you deserve.

But I am A monster.

Worse, a clone of A monster.

A flawed Clone at that.

Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: Evanessance -Tournique

My Name is Laura, Laura Kinney. It's still so strange to be calling myself that. To...... acknowledge I exist. If you read my file you'd know....... I was set free upon this world, free, not on a mission, not being used, free, on this world 2 days ago, and I've been running since. Laura Kinney. It's odd, my names not Laura, I'm, I'm X23. Will I ever feel like 'Laura Kinney' can I ever feel that?
I just need to know I need to stay free. S.H.I.E.L.D. will be coming. They'll all be coming. Am I ready? Am I strong enough to face this 'Wolverine' face myself, and tell him who I am?


My Names Laura Kinney, and today's my first birthday, I wonder what I'll wish for........

Current Mood: crankycranky
Current Music: P.O.D. - Alive
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